biggest question

I've been through a lot of bullshits in my life, i've been at my worse a couple of time. But one of a question that always hit me hardest is "how am i suppose to explain to u this" i know certain things are better off not telling or rather let it remain unknown to the ppl surround u. Trust me, i know. I've always been the type of person that wouldnt open my mouth until that particular person ask me abt it. But there's always a side of me where i keep reminding myself "honesty is the best policy"or "being honest is always the right choice". 

I've always been drowning in guilt whenever i'm in a situation where as this question is buried inside of me. This is the most cliche shit ever but my heart says "its the right thing to do, u know that" but i am exactly standing in a place where keeping it to myself is safer & less consequences. Its rather funny, the more i keep it from the ppl i should be explaining to, i got sink in with even worse kind of situation,

I know this is completely random & i dont usually post this kind of stuff but i just need to let it out of my chest. It sucks, it really does. Well thats all. U dont need to understand it, i just need to express my frustration & me being indecisive thats all